I was Right...

The workout tonight at CF was supposed to end with an excessive amount of back squat work.. I'm so glad we skipped it and did 4 2min AMRAPs instead- except now I'm all jacked up on endorphins and can't sleep. So here I am eating dinner at the bar-height table, so the dogs can't steal from me... GGS chicken with broccoli :) I saved the cooking liquid and poured it over the broccoli- GENIUS! I have a small sweet potato and 2 whole spaghetti squashes in my oven roasting for tomorrow... I need to think through my lunch and snacks for tomorrow, we have a field trip... and I'm not sure I want to bring my ENTIRE cooler. I definitely will feel all that work I put it in today... in the morning, but I'll get up and go to GOLD's anyways. I'm going to tempt fate and let the dogs all be "loose" in the kitchen and living room in the morning while I go workout, we'll see how that goes! I really wish I could come home tomorrow and let them out in the middle of the day, it's going to be awful for them and me- I'll be staring at my phone clock all afternoon trying to get home. They're all just so cute, and I love all of their different personalities... and with that, we will wind down- plot out tomorrow's meals.. I go see Manda May for a new tattoo tomorrow afternoon, which I am very excited about. *stay fit and remember YOU deserve only the best*

HOLY WORKOUT

Ok, so it took me 90 mins to get through the workout for Phase 1 Day 1... and I skipped Back Squat and Incline BB Press... why you ask? Crossfit will inevitably kick my back-squat ass tonight... I just have a feeling, if not I'll squat there with actual bumpers and a rack... and incline BB press? I had nothing left to give it, the 45# bar felt heavy... it sucked. These massive sets are great for building up my lactic acid tolerance, and pushing through it... but, not so great for my ego. I had a little bit of shredded chicken before I went to Gold's, and after I had 3 strawberries, 1/4cup of almonds, and the rest of my chicken. I'm on a late eating schedule today, lunch will happen around 2:30- Chicken with cauliflower rice and "pad thai" sauce paleo style. I need to get dinner started! GGS chicken, a personal favorite, and I can do the broccoli right before I go to CF for James, I'll do mine when I get home. SO here I am on Day 1, measurements listed- I'm not doing that stupid "paper" in the photo thing because I'm blogging daily. The only view I'm not disappointed is my rear view- my ass and back are looking awesome still, but I definitely need some work! So here it is- my starting point, it seems like I've had several in the last few months but this is the BIGGIE. I'll take a picture of lunch and add it in when I check in tonight, how I feel blah blah blah. *stay fit*

Changing Things Up

So I posted this yesterday, and decided it was time to figure out what the hell I want. Well, simply put- I want it all and I'm willing to work for it So what do I mean? I mean I want to be a badass crossfit athlete, I want to get on a stage and compete in a Figure competition, I want to do a triathalon, and I want to accomplish all of this while keeping my career and eventually finding love. Is that too much to ask? Better yet, how on earth would I do all of that? Her name is Ashley Horner and she is a goddess- yes, girl CRUSH major. www.Ashleyhorner.co is where you need to go! She just did an Ironman... and she's a figure competitor- she's... my hero. SO, I signed up and downloaded the "Magnifying YOU" program, I'm a little past the "Becoming Extraoridnary"- which incorporates a lot of CF type work and a lot more cardio- I'm jumping right into her program. It's a digital download- and I'm printing it off in "phase" stages- so I start Phase 1 today. It has workouts, but it also has menu ideas to optimize- which was part of my dilemma explained in the video above. So, this morning I tried it out. Clearly- not whole30 approved, but whole9 in a way! It's mostly about clean eating, but I am making swaps since I'm still not doing dairy or grains besides the oatmeal- I love oatmeal. I had steel cut oats with blueberries, 1 egg white with 2 (cooked) oz of pulled pork and an entire green pepper. Her suggestion was 5 egg whites with a GP... I don't like eggs that much- so I looked it up in my ZONE guidelines, 2 egg whites= 1 protein block, so I just swapped the eggs for pulled pork. So far, so good. I'm fuller than I normally am at this point in the morning. I will try out this beast of a circuit- I'm playing hookie today. I have 5 dogs in my house, who I honestly feel guilty about kenneling ALL day and then come home to for 2 hours, and then KENNEL again for 3 hours so that we can eat dinner and all go to bed. I know... I know... they're dogs. But, the one just had surgery and I just- don't feel good about doing it. So, this morning I stayed in and had my breakfast, I will take my time to get adjusted to this new workout routine, I'll get the pedicure I've been dying for the last 2 days and get my nails shortened for this weekend... and I'll lock them up for a few hours and then come home and save them, and then when I go to CF tonight I won't feel as bad- they're building stamina. But tomorrow we have a field trip- so I cannot save them. They will be locked up from 7:30-3:45 (at the earliest)... and then I will come home and save them really quickly and I have a tattoo appointment at 5:00pm, and then off to CF... and then I'll be home- this will be the BIG test of the week. Then it's smooth sailing. I'll check in after snack 1 and lunch with pictures, and I'll take some "DAY 1" photos to track progress. *stay fit*

The Dogs are Taking Over

So I have 5 dogs and 2 cats at my house until Friday... and I'm trying to eat my lunch while 6/7 animals stare at me... it's weird. For being a complete failure at being 100% clean dieting, I'm still doing ok. I gave in yesterday and ate at Freddy's Frozen Custard with my parents, they really wanted to try it and I was in the mood to cheat. I really need some support, like someone to go 60 days with me starting May 1- anyone in? It shouldn't be this hard, I'm still solo, I love the food I've learned to cook- but I just can't keep it 100% lately... I'm not dealing as well as I'd hoped. Problem with this is... I do want to do it! But now I think of this chick's picture and think "WILL MY ABS APPRECIATE THIS?" Instead of do I "really want this"... because that answer is yes :) but my abs say no. So, here I am eating Indian Spiced Beef with cauliflower rice, curry sauce, and broccoli... and it is delicious- I just know that last night if the dogs weren't such a pain kennel I would have gone out to get some skittles! So, it's time to PRIORITIZE ME. I want this, I want to perform better, I want to look better, I want a certain coward of a man to DROOL when he sees updated pictures of me at the gym and competition- as if he already didn't know what he threw away. Excuse my language, but he can go &$%@ himself- I'm over it, but I do want him to really REALLY regret every aspect of me that he lost by being so selfish. So I'm going to eat, and dye my hair... and then who knows. The workout today was beastly, but I got 10 muscle ups successfully after other movements which is a BIG improvement. I only failed on 3. I still cannot string them together, but I am getting up there consistently! I also did the entire workout with a 105# bar... when it was supposed to be 95#... oops, I'm better for it now. *stay fit, LOVE YOUrself.*

Day 2 On my Own

So, I'm standing in my kitchen eating a steak for breakfast... and a crepe... and a banana... and some almond butter- basically snacking my way out the door. For lunch I have Taco Turkey Burgers with Guacamole and strawberries. I haven't been the greatest about diet the last two days. Emotional turmoil tends to do that, but I've decided to take all of the love that was rejected and turn it towards myself and the things that I feel passionate about... for the first time in quite some time without feeling guilty. I had an amazing night at the gym yesterday, I got home later than normal, and I haven't been doing my usual mornings at Gold's since... the 'end'... but I'll get back to it. I had to get to a place where I was okay before I could totally use up my energy. I got back up on the rings last night successfully until my last set, it's starting to feel natural, I just have to learn to string them together. I've stopped crying- that's a waste of my precious hydration- I need that water for training.. but honestly, I think I made peace with this a while ago, when I saw the end approaching. It still hurts to be rejected, but before it wasn't my choice. I've now made the choice to be on my own. Honestly, nothing has changed about how I live my day to day life, except now I'm not disappointed when my phone doesn't ring or ding. The phone calls and texts that I get cheer me up, they are uplifting... and I'm getting back to being myself. I hate to delay starting a "good routine" because of my OCD- I really want to say that April 25 will be the day that I start being 100% clean again... but I'm trying for today. I'm starting to food journal again and revisiting my Whole30 emails to keep me motivated. Competition is next week- I'll keep you posted :) *Stay fit and find YOUR happy*

And it keeps on coming

Source: imgfave.com via Reiley on Pinterest

My anxiety level is... ridiculous. I'm over-sad, and I completely slept through my alarms this morning, but I've been meaning to change what I do in the mornings at Gold's anyways- so I will spend this afternoon planning out a new routine for the morning and probably cut down to Gold's lifting on Mon/Wed/Fri , swimming on Tues/Sun, and interval runs/yoga on Mon/Thurs, I still plan on being outside on Friday afternoons and Saturday mornings with the dogs... to do less work that is non transferrable. This is not my photo, but mine looked very similar (recipe at http://paleomg.com/simple-blueberry-muffins) And now with my stress level I battle this dilemma- eating to deal with stress... I made the muffins, I froze most of the ones I kept and gave away a few, so that I would not be tempted to make them BREAKFAST. Today, in a rush, I had turkey and an apple. I have a chicken breast, 1/2 a sweet potato and a salad for lunch, I'll get back on track. But today I will nap, I will give my body the sleep it wants to process the end of a love I held so close.

Source: skreened.com via Stephanie on Pinterest

So, there is it... Happy Monday *stay fit*

Waco Explosion... :(

So, I fully intended on this being a positive post- and I'm trying to stay upbeat. My dad is one of the doctors helping with the victims at the Fertilizer Plant Explosion- thankfully all of my family and friends are okay, but my heart aches for the victims of the small town of West. KXXV-TV News Channel 25 - Central Texas News and Weather for Waco, Temple, Killeen | So, I'm eating breakfast after my time at Gold's, thinking about all of this and how insignificant my troubles really are. I lived such a blessed life, before the news I was "worrying" about how I was going to pack up the house in May so that when I move in June I can start decorating how I really want to... what furniture I was going to sell, etc. I've been journaling on paper to kind of get my girl-crazy out, all those feelings and emotions that have been weighing on me negatively and it's helping and hurting. It's easy to heal a broken heart this way.... which can become dangerous. In other news though... at the gym this morning my shoulders/back/chest look way better... so things are working! I just need to keep my diet in check to lose the "baby fat" padding that is going on in my mid section and on my thighs. Speaking of, have you checked out my new cooking video? I'll record about Gold's v. CF tonight- an interesting topic, for me at least! Stay fit, Stay Focused.... Eye on the Prize!

3 days of being good and 2 videos filmed!

So here is the video I filmed about choosing a CF Box, It took me a while to formulate exactly what I wanted to say- but there it is, long and wordy! Tonight I filmed a recipe video, Pulled Pork with Balsamic Peaches... on my way to James' with the boys for a playdate and to finish the peaches at his house for dinner. I'm in love with my new hairstylist... and that is really how my day is ending. I'll post the new video tomorrow. *stay fit*

I cheated.

I cheated on my Whole30, I am only human. Had a parent's outing on Friday night to a neighbor's house and I avoided all the munchies... except the triple chocolate fudge cake... so I am starting over today. I'm thinking Whole60 still, but it will be easier now that I am cooking dinners for James as well as myself. Tonight's meal- cashew chicken, which becomes lunch tomorrow. My biggest battle is breakfast, especially with my 2-a days. I will be filming 2 videos tonight, how to pick a CF gym and Gold's v. CF... I keep getting asked if I'm still doing crossfit after I check in at Gold's... so, I want to address the misconceptions. And this is my new mantra... because my stress level has literally added a few gray hairs to my head... and I really want to hibernate, but I will stay awake... I will eat well... and I will achieve my goals. All while trying to find a new place to live in June and started to get ready to move solo. Humph. *stay fit*

Day 4- Off to a Good Start!

So, I made it to the gym last night 5:30pm crossfit and 7:00pm Back/Cardio... man is it crowded at night, never again! So, I was back at it this morning. Last night I ended up making some turkey burgers really fast after school and then chicken thighs and zucchini with a salad for dinner. I ate better than I expected on no prep. This morning I took remaining turkey burgers and threw in some shredded sweet potatoes for breakfast and an apple, easy to do on the go. I made it to the gym to do chest and abs/cardio this morning and I'm glad I cut it short. I'm looking forward to lunch, chicken thigh leftovers, and dinner tonight will be fajitas because I need to use my bell peppers. The workout John just sent me looks awful, and it ends with a run. Blah. I'll check in tonight, but Day 4- Much better so far!

Day 3- Staying Good

No gym this morning, slept in and let my body recover from the drive- I never realize how much it takes out of me. I had a breakfast of left over sausage (Day 2) and sweet potato hashbrowns but had nothing to pack for lunch. I really needed to get home earlier Sunday :( But I know that I will make tonight count, Jazz mentioned a competition in Houston on the 4th of May- So I have 26 days to really get my act together. Oofta. Tonight I will go home and let the boys out, eat something- I might have to order Jason's Deli and pick it up on the way home.... go to 5:30pm Crossfit and then straight to Gold's after to do Back/Biceps and cardio... and then a well deserved dinner and shower and straight to bed with me. I will post later with what I do eventually eat, but it has been a busy Monday already and it's only 11:30am. *stay fit*

Day 2 Success

Ashley Horner posted about sweet potato pancakes the other day, so I tried those for a good sunday breakfast. 1 small sweet potato, 3 egg whites, vanilla, and she added sugar but I chose not to- sweet potatoes carmalize anyways, they were perfect without anything else. I also made some pork sausage over a kale medley salad and had some strawberries. A good start to my day. I took the boys on a walk before it rained, and then attempted a 1.5mile run- which was interrupted by two boxers that tried to eat me. There was a police officer next to them, which I found out later that they were reason for the police presence- their owner left a window open when he left and they broke out, they'd been terrorizing the neighborhood. Enter Beth- yelling and stomping, the dogs backed down. The police officer was trying to corral them with a taser making noise, I told them in "mom voice" to "GET IN THE HOUSE, NOW".... to which they responded by going in the house. I helped the police shut the window, but only got a mile or so done before it started to rain. Not a bad deal. I had an early dinner/late lunch with mom and dad at La Cantina- I had a skinny chicken burger with the avocados my mom discarded from her soup. I've been trying to fill my plates and extra space with leafy greens, to get lean and to stay full- I over did the sweet potatoes last whole30. Dinner was leftover Tortilla-less Soup and half a sweet potato (after that last paragraph I feel like a hypocrite, but it was ready to eat so I saved myself cooking!!) Went to bed later than expected, I couldn't resist the Game of Thrones temptation... so my gym time Monday will be skewed! *stay fit*

Finally... a Day 1 to be proud of.

So I kept on my good track today, I did a 400m swim at Golds.... looked a little something like 25m-breast, 25m-free, 25m-back, 25m-breast... 25m-back, 25m-free, 25m breast, 25m-back (repeat both sets) Felt good. Kept me on track, dad and I ran some errands and then got freebirds. I got a great salad with guacamole (photo above) and kept going for a healthy evening. I made sweet potato french fries, my dad grilled these awesome pork sausages, and I had a baby Kale medley salad (my parents subbed this with mac&cheese...ew) So here I am, it's 8:15pm on a Saturday and my baby bear Barrett is asleep, whined so much that I brought him upstairs to see if he was hungry- apparently, just tired. Figured I'd update and say SUCCESS on Day 1 of 60! Here's to day 2. *Stay Fit*

Never Ending Day 1 of Whole60

I just cannot get it together this week to truly dedicate to a new whole60. I know why I broke on Thursday- lack of sleep led to the munchies... and I just decided to get it over with and give in. I figured the 5th would be just as a good of a starting date- but here I am... Saturday, April 6... Starting day 1 OVER AGAIN. Why you ask? I got into my parents house late last night, my injury is still stopping me from working out how I want to- and my dad had a birthday cookie... FAIL. So, I'm going to do a daily food log on here, in addition to the weekly videos of recipes and updates... keeping myself accountable. I cannot keep the mindset of "cheating" I have to just go 100% into this as a lifestyle. So I am restarting Phase 2 of the LIVEFIT trainer this week as well, Monday will be Day 3 of Whole60 and Day 1 of the Phase 2 trainer. I will get to the gym early and will not skip that 30min of cardio 4 days a week... I slacked last week. SO... here is breakfast, 2 chicken-kale-sweet potato patties and an egg-coconut milk "crepe" I'm going to go swim at Gold's just to get my body moving, and I still have yet to decide if I am doing 13.5 tomorrow... We shall see. Will check in tonight with lunch and dinner. Wish me dedication! :) *stay fit*

STAAR is OVEEER!!!

STAAR test ended for today... Ugh. Science comes on April 24, retakes in May. I'm finding this whole60 necessary to deal with being.... Beth. Got home from work, started chicken-sweet potato-kale patties for breakfast tomorrow and Friday, a jerk-inspired pork chop spread for dinner... It is now nap time, but I thought I'd check in. I resisted all the goodies at work for teachers the last two days, I'm back into my normal swing and it feels good.

Chili Garlic Chicken Video is up

The Link will be live while I drive to workout, will try to film tonight about an update to my life and choosing a gym. :) Stay Fit!

A terrible Monday, who'd have thought!

Well, despite being April Fools... it really hasn't started out to be the Monday I wanted ... need to get it together. I fully intend on starting my whole60 today, I will do a video log tonight with Dinner and my meal plans- but I didn't make it to the grocery last night, so I am foodless. I have lots of meat frozen, but that didn't do me any good this morning and I'm all out of veggies and fruit... so, even if I was 100% today I would still be resting tonight and doing that. Let's put on top of that the INCREDIBLE AMOUNT OF PAIN that I am in from my accident with the TTB yesterday. I couldn't roll over in bed this morning and I'm limping. Thankfully, nothing is broken, but I can feel an entire Right Side Bruise, especially on my tailbone and my ribs, and my shoulder feels out of whack. I'll have to take tonight off from the gym to evaluate how bad this is, it didn't feel so terrible last night... this morning is a different story. So I am moving my meal plan over a day, so tonight I will have Chili Garlic Chicken and Veggies and will prep Smoky Mexican Tortilla-Less Soup in my crock pot and will be back on track for tomorrow having that for lunch. I will put all the video link for Day 1 of Whole60 down below. Gotta Focus on being the Best Beth Possible... which means dedication, consistency, and also taking the time that my body needs to rest and recover. I need to stay focused and have a plan, STAAR math and reading are tomorrow and Wednesday for my 5th graders and I cannot help them by showing them how stressed I am. Eye on the Prize. *Stay Fit*